Driving right past the drive through

So today I met my goal. I went to spinning at 6:00 PM tonight after a long long day of lessons in SLC. I pushed really hard and it felt great. It was a much better stress reliever than I thought it would be. I am still planning to go to Zuma tomorrow morning. I was really stressed today for some reason- can't put a finger on it. Well actually I can. I've had several friends in the past couple of weeks go through major marital problems and 6 friends have gone through divorces or getting ready to get divorced this week (officially) and for some reason it has really had me in a down mood. I do not judge or blame my friends but it just seems to come out of nowhere and even though it's none of my business I just hope that these friends are ok and that they are getting the love and support they need. I just had to get that out.

Well today I drove right past the McDonald's drive through even though I really wanted to stop for a fruit smoothie. I packed my lunch for today along with some good filling snacks but it wasn't quite enough. I pushed the "stress" hunger away and reminded myself that I had plenty to eat and I didn't need to supplement with a fruit smoothie. Just FYI the only thing McDonald's does sell that might be decent is their all fruit smoothies. The small only has 200 calories and it is DELICIOUS!!

Dan reminded me yesterday when I was really down on myself for my weight that I just learned about my Hashimoto's and that my weight is not all my fault right now. That's such a bizaare concept- it's always been my fault!!! I have a hard time wanting to give something like a health problem that much power over me...I really want this excess weight to be easier to fix than this...but alas he reminded me that I have my followup with the endocrinologist in a couple weeks and we have no idea what my thyroid levels are like or how long it will take before I'm able to lose weight. I just wish I knew how much is really my thyroid, and how much is really my diet/exercise.

My ipod died today and I didn't have a charger so once again I'm going to enter my food all at once instead of throughout the day. It's always scarier that way but I'm trying to learn to trust myself more and trust that I can make healthy choices. I am one step closer to my office max notebook and have to say that the biggest motivation to actually go to spinning tonight was the fact that I wrote out my goal. I guess I need little goals each week. Happy eating friends!