After such a disturbing post, it's time for something a little lighter today. Today I am patting myself on the back and kicking myself in the butt all at the same time.
I am patting myself on the back for following through with my goal to not eat out for the month of November. I went to Idaho this weekend and there were no restaurants or fast food stops. You might think this a small triumph, but at the Cramer house...I sometimes wonder if my parents have an account with The Canton and Sol Rio.
My mom was very accommodating even though she was peer pressured into trying to do take-out one night. She cooked for us each day and it was delicious.
I also met up with a friend last night and instead of our usual sushi or thai food night, we just met at the mall and walked around. She is pregnant with TWINS and so of course she needed a snack at the food court, so I sipped lemonade while she ate pizza.
The conversation is really more important than the food, but usually the two go hand in hand for me. I think girls just love to talk and eat and so girl time usually turns into some sort of food time.
Now to kick myself in the butt.
I ate a lot of Halloween candy. I'm not even supposed to eat candy, but I was REALLY celebrating this year and ate a ton of candy in Idaho...and at my house...and every time I could get my hands on the stuff.
I started logging again on myfitness pal and my brother told me that he reads my diaries sometimes. I was mortified! He said, why? you eat oatmeal and blueberries EVERY. SINGLE. DAY!!
He's right, I do eat oatmeal, blueberries, and an egg every morning for breakfast.
He then said he didn't usually read past breakfast and just assumed I was a super healthy eater.
Of course I'm a super healthy eater at breakfast...it's as my self control wains and I start getting stressed that usually leads to some horrific lunch of 12 bowls of golden grahams or something gross like that.
I really am supposed to be following a protocol and guess what? I have probably followed it 50% of the time in October, so I'm shooting for more like 75% for the month of November.
I got this, right?
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ReplyDeletethanks for your encouragement! You're right, it's definitely one day at a time.
DeleteHey Steph! I joined TOPS this month. It is a bunch of old ladies, that sing silly songs, weigh in every week, and silly competitions, and lose weight. TOPS stands for take off pounds sensibly. There is no meal plan, or diet. Just exercise and hope that you lose weight that week so you can win a prize. I really like. I is cheap too, on $30 a year, and $3 a month, but if you win enough prizes, you don't even have to pay that. :) I think i will lose this week because I have step and can't eat or drink a thing! It sucks! Ayways, keep being kind to yourself. You are a great person! Can't wait to have you here in Idaho!
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