Put your baby in a paper bag with breathing holes dang it.

Want to know what makes people baby hungry?

1. Being around really cute babies...especially ones born around the same your child would have been born if that whole miscarriage thing hadn't happened...kinda makes you go, "oh, if only I would have had that little baby, he/she would also be cooing and smiling all the time by now too..."

2. Being around cute girls who are 5-6 months pregnant with their first baby. (Ugly girls who are 5-6 months pregnant have NO affect on me, just cute ones alright?)

3. People talking about the woes and joys of pregnancy.

4. Seeing announcement after announcement of pregnancy announcements on facebook.

I'm coming pretty close to the year mark from when I miscarried and honestly I thought I would be pregnant again by this point. I've come to terms with the fact that I won't be following in the footsteps of the many women in my age range who have had the chance to become mothers by the time they were 30.

I have accepted that my body has been sick for a very long time and it's best for my health that I haven't become pregnant this year, but it still doesn't turn off that biological clock and the voice screaming "MY EGGS ARE ROTTING, MY EGGS ARE ROTTING!!!"

Dan and I feel that babies will be a part of our future but not anytime soon and sometimes I'm OK with that and then other times when I'm at a Pampered Chef party with cute pregnant girls and 6 month old babies I get kinda down about it. It's just sad that I have so far to go with my health so I don't have a clear timeframe of when we should start "trying" again.

On a happy note, we are in a GREAT place. For the first time in all of our marriage, we are unattached to school and are finally DINKS! (Dual-Income-No-Kids)

We go out to dinner all the time, I have a great new wardrobe, I go shopping ALL the time to decorate our apartment, we  bought a new car, and we're getting ready to purchase our new home.

Um yeah, not really.

We are really enjoying the time we have together and the adventures we get to have right now. We feel blessed to have this time together and really do live it up as much as we can.

We are planning a trip to Boise in September, fantasizing about all the cities we could move to when Dan gets accepted to nursing school, planning fun trips for our birthdays and anniversaries, and trying to enjoy our present moment.

I'm feeling more happy and content than I have in a long long time. Perhaps slowly losing weight and having my body chemistry balancing out is helping.

So all I ask is that if your babies are cute or you are cute and pregnant, would you mind either putting your baby under a paper bag (with breathing holes of course) when we hang out or wearing a paper bag dress next time I see you? Thanks. Much appreciated.