My endocrinologist likes the idea of a baby as much as I do

Well I get my body composition tested this Friday and I have not weighed in almost 2 weeks. I am more interested in my body composition than my weight. I have been making so many more healthy choices the past few weeks and working on my attitude is one thing I am REALLY trying to be better at.

I went to my endocrinologist today and she said my blood looks so good and if all her patients were as healthy as me she wouldn't have a job. My insulin is at 4 and she said she is thrilled if it is less than 10. I have excellent blood pressure, stable thyroid, excellent cholesterol, and excellent everything else related to blood.

I told her that I honestly thought once I started taking thyroid medication and my metabolism got a boost, the weight would fall off and I would lose these mystery pounds. She said, you know, I wish it worked that way. And I said, you mean it doesn't???? I was kind of surprised and kind of relieved. Surprised because I thought thyroid medication made your body go back to "normal," giving you NO excuses for being overweight. Relieved because I don't feel so alone.

Here's the deal. I'm still searching for answers. I'm still struggling with being healthy 100% of the time. I'm still struggling with lunch dates. I'm still struggling with exercising on days when I'm at my wits end with teaching and school. I'm still struggling with being overweight.

I don't know if these things will ever go away. In fact, I have decided these are things I have to live with. If I have to live with these things I might as well move on with my life and do the best I can to improve on these things over my LIFETIME not just for 12-24 months.

Moving on in life. Here's to hoping Dan and I can figure out how to make a baby now because when I asked my endocrinologist if we could start trying despite the fact I'm technically overweight, she said heck yes! Well, she didn't really say heck, but I felt a good "heck yes!" coming from her because she didn't hold back one bit.

Here's to hoping we will be blessed with the miracle of life. Hmmm, now to go get one of those mood-killing thermometers...ovulation detectors things...handbooks from natural family planning...