Interesting Contradiction of sorts

So today I finished my master's degree!!!! I wish I could put into word what this means for me. The strangest thing happened when I got home. I was so unconcerned with food for the first time in 3.5 years, it was almost scary. Here's the contradiction...Dan wanted to "celebrate" and take me to dinner and he chose the Olive Garden (the only thing that counts as Italian in American Fork) How could I resist a date with my hot husband? Alas I could not. When I went I was thinking, I'm going to celebrate by NOT eating and reclaiming my power to listen to my body. That lasted about 4 seconds when I sat down and looked at the crab stuffed ravioli and the waiter brought warm breadsticks. Well I ate because there was food that looked good but I really wasn't eating for hunger...but I was so excited to not have feelings to eat today!!! I've been eating my stressful feelings of inadequacy, underdog, not good enough, over worked, over stressed and exhausted for years. It's over. I have no one expecting greatness out of me now- I just get to decide what my own greatness is now and that is empowering. I just feel really really really empowered right now. Dan and I are spinning tomorrow morning so I'm off to bed.